40. Pandora Indie Singer-Songwriter station.
41. Vacuumed floors and a clean dog, all in the same day.
42. The fact that I slowed down enough this evening to give a long, enveloping hug and warm kisses on cheeks to each person in my family wherever they happened to be sitting after dinner - a round robin of love - and what I felt in return from their softening shoulders.
43. Andy looking at me in a different way than I've seen for months (and possibly months, and many months more). I looked back at him with raised eyebrows, and he back at me with a look as if he's seeing me for the first time. He said, "You're different." I asked how and he said, "In your attitude, it's really nice." He followed this with a chuckle and an explanation of how it's not that things weren't nice before..." We both laughed and then talked for a few more minutes. And then that look. That look that I didn't know I have been missing for far too long. And in writing this, I just realized that maybe (I believe) his gaze at me has never changed. What a gift.
43. A week of gifts, and many more to come.
I have been thinking about this post for several days. I wish that I was as eloquent as you, which is why I give pause to posting any comments. However I will plung in, as I plung into (this kinda creepy) hot tub in my rural hotel in OK.
ReplyDeleteI applaud you for sharing such an intimate moment between you and Andy.
Why does it seem that we only share the bad that happpens in our relationships? Is that we are looking for validation in how we have been'wronged' and we need our friends to 'right' us? Or is that we don't want others to resent us for our good fortune? Both?
it reminds me of a coment my mother said while I was in college. "I only have the data you give me"
Your moment made me think of a romantic scene in a Reese Witherspoon movie; one that I would love to create in my own life. Perhaps I can create an, "ah ha" moment like you have through your actions.
I look forward to the honest moments in your life; I live vicariously through them. Thank you for being my teacher.
Love, Light, & Laughter
Never give pause to who you are, that is what you teach me - without you even knowing it, for you put your WHOLE self out there for the world to see and experience - similar to writing as I did here, just come to life. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. I'm learning as I go here that in my writing and others sharing, it's a win-win, a learn-grown for all! I'm loving it!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the gift of you.