Starting Now: Confession

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Confession

I have a confession. I have allowed Start #1 to be a convenient diversion from something else that I started before this blog and have since not finished. If I am really going to test the purpose of this blog, I feel it's important for me to own up.

We (Andy and I) need to get on a better financial path; we are overdue, and in more ways than one! A friend recommended Dave Ramsey's book, Total Money Makeover. The book is sitting on my night stand, probably with dust on the bookmark exactly where I left it in page 110. Just two nights ago I finished the other project I've been wanting to complete for weeks, so now it's time to return. My intention is that by committing here on the page, I will have to follow through to finish. My goal is to at least finish the book, and then determine if/how we will start our money makeover, which will be Start #2.

For this moment, I don't think that I'll document the other project I just finished because I didn't start it here. As this blog in its early stages is a work in progress of my life at present; reaching towards follow through, incorporating daily positivity, as well as returning to my writing, so will the starts and finishes be about the process and progress.

Goodnight! I'm off to bed to read.

2 comments:

JoyfulEatsNovember 3, 2011 at 9:11 AM
ahh, again! such a beautiful post, so honest & open. It, again, inspires me to step into trusting, simply loving...being. thanks for this special gift.
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Starting NowNovember 3, 2011 at 10:34 PM
Thank YOU for the gift of helping me see that in myself, in my own writing, and in sharing.
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Welcome to Starting Now

Starting Now, I am starting to finish. Always prolific in my starts, I give birth to many ideas that flutter like a baby bird leaving the nest for the first time. In what feels to be the thick of my life (see "About Me"), there is no better time than now to take flight, to make my finishes as abundant as my starts. I no longer have limitless time or desire to clean up the mental and physical chaos created by starting many things and not fnishing one.

It is my hope that in starting now (for there is only now) and starting here on the page, that I will reach through the initial excitement of a thought, a project, a relationship just beginning, etc.... I will abandon my fear of yet another fallen start, sorrow heavy on my mind and in my heart to instead, give strong wings to my start, life to my lungs, and clarity to my psyche as I soar from one project to the next.

A bit lofty, I realize, but in starting this blog, I am creating accountabilty for myself to show up at the page every day. To show up is to write every day. Create. Improve every day. Learn. Hone the idea, thought, project, progress every day. Grow. And perhaps, learn from others who care to share their ideas on starts and finishes, as together, we spur a community of finishers able to relish in the life and gift - to ourselves and those we share our lives and gifts with - of what we finished, and what we start anew, again, now.

The idea is that as I embark on a start, I will track it here to its finish. Add thoughts if you like, or share your own starts, what you learn along the way, ideas for improvement and efficiency, how you enjoy the journey. For I realize that life is not simply about finishing, but the journey along the way. Yet, I am learning that to finish (something, anything, if even just for today it is folding the laundy and putting it away), boosts my confidence and becomes the catalyst for the birth and life of another start. Another contribution to our beautiful world.

My Life

Mother to Lily and Emmy, two young girls alike only in their adoring, interesting, active, sensitive, loving, creative ways; wife to Andy who has an uncanny resemblance of characteristics to the ways of our girls and who is a recovering (at least that is my wish!) non-finisher like me; caretaker of our human-like Irish red and white setter named Molly, and;

Breathe, ahhhh

Active participant in our lives filled with work, school, deadlines I struggle to meet, homework, cooking, appointments, relationships, laughter, sometimes screaming (we’re all working on that), play, bills, travel, gymnastics, walks with the dog, reading, managing technology and schedules, exercising our independence and learning to work together (and the balance of the two), trying to make healthy choices, and, did I forget anything?

Yes! In honor of my first start, breathing fully (I often forget to do this) and practicing gratitude. Thank you breath, for you give me life!